tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8576170691178435057.post4832915100586224433..comments2023-10-23T22:03:55.915+01:00Comments on Candycan and Co...: Are there different degrees of switching in dissociative identity disorder?Candycanhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11829509163881070649noreply@blogger.comBlogger9125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8576170691178435057.post-90080249501480819042015-07-16T00:56:09.820+01:002015-07-16T00:56:09.820+01:00I know this was a couple of years ago.
Yesterday I...I know this was a couple of years ago.<br />Yesterday I was in my T office and she said I switch a lot. I freaked out. I mean went a little crazy and almost walked out. However after a day I have calmed down and I read this post. It really did help. I know I feel weird and do some weird stuff and get fuzzy brain. I just thought this was me my normal me. I come to find out not everyone is like this and it scares me. So I guess I'm more on the lesser end of switching I normally remember and it's not a full switch. However I guess a couple of times in T's office I have said something or done things and I don't remember doing or saying them. Mostly though it's an impression of feelings, thoughts, sensations of maybe another? I'm not sure how to put any of this into words yet. Not even sure if I want to accept it yet. :(Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8576170691178435057.post-65098113091736455512013-05-18T20:48:16.075+01:002013-05-18T20:48:16.075+01:00That's a good term for it...mashed up. I like ...That's a good term for it...mashed up. I like it! Candycanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11829509163881070649noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8576170691178435057.post-88648260016871826072013-05-17T17:58:25.138+01:002013-05-17T17:58:25.138+01:00I know that feeling well, knowing you aren't e...I know that feeling well, knowing you aren't exactly you, but you aren't exactly another alter either. And it feels so weird not being sure who is halfway out with you. In our family, we call it being mashed-up, like when you mash-up two songs together and you can't always tell which is which.Meronymhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12236547756894952486noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8576170691178435057.post-8423820434470004582013-05-04T14:00:48.205+01:002013-05-04T14:00:48.205+01:00Sounds like you are heading in a good direction fo...Sounds like you are heading in a good direction for you. Cheering you on. Ruthhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07083142637240943607noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8576170691178435057.post-77000155501931759912013-04-25T13:09:05.395+01:002013-04-25T13:09:05.395+01:00Hi Ruth, fuzzy brain is something I can relate to....Hi Ruth, fuzzy brain is something I can relate to. I also found the diagnosis of DID to be a relief and on the positive that I discovered my odd symptoms matched what so many others experience. <br />It was very brave of you to push so hard for integration. I have a lot of mixed feelings about it so tend to just not think about it too much at the moment. I am working towards feeling better, coping better and functioning better, whatever way that comes about.<br /><br />Hi B, I don't completely understand it myself either and my thoughts in the post, are really just my thoughts. There could be a better explanation for what is going on. Thanks for commenting. Sounds like your therapist is observing.Candycanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11829509163881070649noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8576170691178435057.post-61446991252236018332013-04-21T09:10:08.626+01:002013-04-21T09:10:08.626+01:00I understand almost completely. I feel the same an...I understand almost completely. I feel the same and my therapist has identified different parts of me in the past and is sometimes able to reflect to me that I'm different when I'm feeling like someone else but not switched. <br /><br />Glad to see you blogging again xxxBnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8576170691178435057.post-57201662696011053842013-04-21T07:11:43.044+01:002013-04-21T07:11:43.044+01:00Keep in mind that each person is different...From ...Keep in mind that each person is different...From knowing I was in pieces to integration was 5 years...From initial split to integration 45 years. A lot of confusion in my life that I used to call 'Fuzzy brain' before I knew that I functioned as a multiple. My diagnosis was a relief that all the odd episodes actually made sense from a certain point of view, DID. I worked actively toward integration. My choice, true my counselor encouraged my choice but it still had to be my choice.Ruthhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07083142637240943607noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8576170691178435057.post-54546002357188265662013-04-20T18:17:22.684+01:002013-04-20T18:17:22.684+01:00How long did it take you to get from that time in ...How long did it take you to get from that time in your life (not recognising ppl etc) to being integrated?Candycanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/11829509163881070649noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8576170691178435057.post-9533421028234512112013-04-20T17:45:53.321+01:002013-04-20T17:45:53.321+01:00I so recognize what you are saying. No need to ex...I so recognize what you are saying. No need to explain why you haven't been posting...glad to know your are working on getting to a good place. The jumble of things that are me and weren't me was confusing sometimes. The one that I struggled with was when I switched to the one that looked at the family pictures on the wall and didn't know who those people were, my husband and children. I would feel so confused sometime. I learned some about my past but mostly I accept that fuzzy is good. Details are not needed to know painful things happened. Ruthhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/07083142637240943607noreply@blogger.com